uncannybastard

2009-07-17T09:08:00.002+08:00

for all reasons...

listening to Basshunter, Pulsedriver is a hit to my ears...
totally not me though, but hey, party is rock hard cool...
can't wait to go to MOS for friend's birthday!
partey!!!
dancing, here and there, music filling the air!

2009-07-01T10:46:00.002+08:00

wooo, its been a long time since i last updated, months perhaps...
sorry due to lack of internet usage at home..
now working at MCYS, using of computer is uncountable...

nothing much to update actually, just that going to watch Lady Gaga's concert with gf at Singapore Indoor Stadium, i think at 12th August..
Maybe going to watch Liverpool match versus Singapore, but with the silences arousing the relatives, don't think we're going..
waiting to have a soccer match with the hippos!
but overall, i want to get my pay asap!
need to pay Fatin and Davin!!!

2009-05-02T11:48:00.002+08:00

i wont be updating alot
or should i say i wont be updating much/at all

anything text/call me up
for those who don't have me number,
ask from those who you think have..

oh yeah, sorry if i cant really hang out much this
few weeks, been gotten sick, and now injured my thumb
area, so just catch me up soon

i try to come down next week Friday for prayers

toodles!

2009-04-07T13:51:00.002+08:00

sorry didn't update for quite sometime,
due to internet problems

Monday, 7th April.
went out to meet gf at her place
head down to Bugis to Sim Lim Square
to upgrade her laptop RAM
thinking of upgrading the internal hard drive
but come to think of it, whereby the external 160 GB hard drive
cost at $109, and upgrading to the internal 4 GB hard drive
cost as much, so she just bought that
including a mouse, a portable mouse
then went Bugis Village to buy 2 shirts, and one jean skirt,
something like that, i don't know how to say
thanks aween for telling me where you got the skirt.

then headed back to my place, ate there
mum met Aziera, then chilled for awhile nearby my place
then went back to Jurong
the most irritating part is that when we reached at Pioneer
there's not a single place for us to sit!
we went rounding the places, here and there, still none!
so we decided to seat at the staircase
WAIT! its not what you guys thinking, we're sitting
facing the streets so people is able to see what we're
doing, which is nothing more then smoking and talking!
honest sia! hahaha

then sent her back, i sat down for awhile, tired and restless
due to unsleepable night i had
then headed home

heading to uncle's house at Johor soon

and OA Gathering is to be postponed to 18th April
will update you guys on the destination and time
hope you guys can make it
and please text me or Davin on the availability
thanks

(:

2009-04-02T12:51:00.002+08:00

hmmm nothing much to say,
went Tampines on April's Fools Day...
earlier that day was pranked by Travis..
saying he was raped by gays...

then arrived at Tamp, hang out, then decided to play
pranks on some people, such as Syafiq Ali, Khalil and Nadhirah!
Nadhirah's prank was classic, saying Rasis, her loverboy, got
into a skating accident, and broke his leg, then we drag
the story to make me more reallistic, then in the end we
just cut it off and told her April's Fools Day!
why, cause she sounded so panic and all...

hmmm, sometimes, it just doesn't seem right
and it brings me down, drastically, when you said that
i've not eaten, slept well, heck im even stoppin from smokin!
but everytime i think about you, it hurts me....

):

2009-03-28T17:17:00.002+08:00

26th March...

played soccer at JYSS...
wasn't a good match though
but we lost not by countless of goals but by just one
with me conceding 2 goals of course
haiya need to buck up i guess
then lepak/rest after that and did "pancakes" on Fathu, Syafiq Ali
and, the most funniest one, Davin
was kinda like thinking that time why he shouted "ARGGGH my armpit"
hahahaha but understand now uh! haha

27th March...

went for NS Medical Checkup
woke up at 5, went out at 7 like that, ate breakfast with dad...
then headed to Mount Faber to kill time
then headed to CMPB for the checkup
first time there, and was kind of lost uh, but luckily got someone i just
followed from behind! hehe
then took photo first, then headed for 7 different stations of check ups...
first up, Urine Test and Blood Test...
second, Hearing Test...
thirt, Eye Tests, colour deficiency all...
forth, X-ray Tests...
followed by Dental Checks..
then, followed by height and weight checks, ehem checks
then headed back to the Dental Station to do teeth x-ray
whatever that is uh!
then headed to take the stupid 1 hour test!
finished, headed home via motorbike..

and i got into PES B!
okay uh...
gotten home, felt so tired, and knock myself out!
hehe

(:

2009-03-21T21:16:00.002+08:00

Friday went to meet gf at 2 pm at her block
went to Tampines via MRT of course, chatted along the way...
reached Tamp then hang out to kill time before fetching her younger
brother from the Airport, returning from Bogor, Indonesia...
then went to my old block to check out some letters, but can't...
met Hilmi for awhile, asking for bus directions...
then took 34 to Airport, supposedly to be at the Airport by 7 actually
but we're so late that we reached the airport at 7.30pm
thinking that Riffy, gf's brother, is already at the Arrival Hall...
but actually he just got past the immigration checks...
then we waited for him, saw him from far
seriously he looks like one mat uh, but he not uh, thanks to that
very OBVIOUS green cap that he bought
then we caught up with him and headed to Coffee Bean to chill out abit

then headed to the MRT and straight home, i mean gf's home uh
Riffy wanted to go back home straight so eating at home yeah...
then chatted, was supposedly to be taking picture with gf, but forgotten
actually, hehe, soon again kay dear.. hehehe
then reached at Pioneer MRT Station, then walked back to her house
then got to their house, their mum invited me in, to have dinner i guess
then chatted, laughed alot there, then their dad got back home, from driving
then laughed alot, very interesting parents gf got!
hahaha

then headed home, relaxed and call gf for awhile
then knock myself out...
(:

can't wait for 26th March! weeee!!
(:

2009-03-16T20:45:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late updates and all..
can't find the time anyways...

Friday went down lepak, met Nadhirah on the way!!
then headed to mosque to pray, then met Rasis, Adib and Wahab
at blakang sekolah, chatted there, then came Hilmi...
then headed to multi, to play soccer, with others...

Saturday, Cousin's Outing...
went to Vivo, met Zila, Mas and Nadiah while on the train
ate at Banquet, was called "Bubble Boy" by Mas
then hang out, before that went to the National Geographic store
look around, where by quite interesting things there are eye catching
zila took pictures of us, herself too, pictures go to Zila's blog
then went to Daiso, shopped, then walked around again...
then Zila caught a book on Digital Imaging/Animation Guide thingi
hmmmm, very interesting though, whilst i when to the cooking area...
then went back home, on the way, met Marcos, chatted with him
and Marcos got a new IPhone!

Sunday, went out with gf!
FINALLY, missing her sooo much,
the deal was to meet at 1 at her place, but i was sick and tired
and i woke up at 1.3o to be exact
then met her around 3, went to IMM, ate there and met her auntie...
then slowly headed back to Boon Lay, as gf gotta buy Karaoke CD's for dad
but we just look around, and her brother caught up with us!
so we hang around there, chatted, laugh alot there..
then i send both of them home, and me headed back home too...

fetching Sharifie, gf's brother, at Changi Airport this friday
after his trip to Bogor, Indonesia...

Wednesday, meeting Junaidi and Faris to discuss certain things
and seriously i've got to cut my hair for the SPF Interview coming up
hope i get it though

(:
i miss you so much gf!

2009-03-08T16:41:00.000+08:00

Friday went to meet gf,
accompany her to take her A' Levels cert
travel from Pioneer MRT Station, first time for me uh
then travel to Bukit Batok Station...
again first time there also...
met her friend at MI bus stop, Aqidah
then went in together, blah blah blah
the results was shocking, for both of us uh.. hahaha

then headed to West Mall to eat lunch, for gf and Aqidah of course
not me, when to Swensens to eat
then headed to Woodlands Civic Centre to attend to some stuffs
then back to Boon Lay, Aqidah went meeting her dad, whilst me and gf went
Library to read some stuffs, met Azizah and her bf there, which was shocking!
yet it bring loads of memories, ask Fana! hehehe

hang out till night, then send her home...

saturday went to hospital due to coughing of blood, flu as it is getting worse
then everything was fine actually uh, just my throat is too dry...
then got news from Junaidi, and yay! this coming Thursday Match
with Danial Azri's team is still on, hopefully it won't be happening the same
as the last time though..

dad still owes me money...
getting it back from him on the 12th or 13th March...
don't he dare run away from promises!

(:

2009-03-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

aku rindu mata air aku!!!!
hmmm familiar lines kan Rasis!
hehek
1 week seh never meet! how sad kan,
but as long as she tell me when she's available
then i'll meet her!

Thursday soccer match against Daniel Azri's team, yes again....
but now the big fuck up thing is that maybe most Alumni
members from the same batch, will be coming!
we just want it to be just us, playing together...
but now, got the news that maybe others will be coming just makes plans
overturned!
not that we don't want to, but we planned this for couple of weeks already...
damn it sia!
we'll see about tomorrow...

Friday coming down prayers most probably...
then lepak, i guess...

Sunday, please baby please, try to be free,
if can't its okay, then next week then...
i miss you sooo much!

):

2009-02-28T13:36:00.003+08:00

Gonna miss gf soo much!
):
when you're free just text me kay love!?
and yes, finally stress free huh!
hahaha

Nurul Syukriyah!!
alamak, deng ah lu!
hehehe
how the hell you gotten into such accident, i wouldn't know
jangan hayal2 la, biler keje tu...
kay, relax, i know you know right...
smile kay?
jaga itu adik PUTIH MELEPAK baru mu!
hahaha

i wanna play soccer/takraw/blind mice/any sports!
):

2009-02-26T22:29:00.002+08:00

sorry for the late update,
can only use the internet during night hours..

nothing much to update,
went to Jurong on Tuesday to accompany honey to checkup
for SP, very troublesome uh
then hang out here and there, smoke...
laugh alot, and i do mean alot!

tomorrow going lepak, most probably
if GF got plans, then i lepak, but i want to meet her
seriously, i miss her soo damn bloody much sia
anyways, Jun, jeng jeng jeng! hehehe

Syuk!!
ye i know dah update kan !
See see see!!
hehehe

Sunday may be going out with gf
if her uncle cancelled the plan, if not, most probably stay home
or go her house to pass something, then home...
nothing much in mind to say actually...
haiya...

(:

2009-02-19T21:24:00.002+08:00

18th February 2009!!!
Yay!
ahaks

went out with Aziera.
met her at Boon Lay MRT, cause there's where she stays
went to West Coast, my first time of course
very windy place and nice to chill and relax mind
talked here and there
bought Double Choco Frappe, hers too
sat around know more about each other
and yes honestly,

I LOVE NURUL AZIERA!

Syuk, takya nak OMG banyak2 seh!
baru together je, bukan nye tunang ke kahwin seh!
hahaha
and thanks Nard for the encouragement, appreciate
it girl (:

and yes i'm attached to her, Nurul Aziera
hehe (:

going to quit pump attendent job at Esso cause
of the way i'm, malays should i say, being treated there..
so searching for job

coming down to Tampines tomorrow,
going prayers, then after that,
time will tell of course...
and Su, i know what you're going to say
but i can't anymore, and like she won't fall for me uh
and now my heart stays with someone else
(:

hmmm, sitting around at home
nothing much to do, but lay here and there
listen to music, helped here and there
aiya

(:

2009-02-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

plans cancel after cancel...
haiya, very the sad uh!
i wanted to go out, time after time
but i just can't
those who knows/understand my situation
i really appreciate it alot...

bet going to stay at home more often
nothing to do much actually
just cook, do house chores, sleep, eat, playing FIFA 08, finding work...
blah blah blah
gotta save up some cash each time coming down to lepak or so
sorry guys, but i hope you guys understand
would love to come down more often but just can't
it would be great for you to come up north here guys?
i mean if you guys have the time though
sorry i can't reply messages to friends out there
my prepaid is low, been low since yesterday actually,
Sodiq will top up soon as possible

Break Out performance ticket gave away to cousin
sorry Jessica, Munir and Hairiah
as i said before, highest bid gets it...
so sorry there

Syuk, i'm sorry i can't sms you much
i mean yeah i miss the phone calls and stuff
but i hope you understand my situation
as for Intan, so sorry about Valentines...
not asking for forgiveness but i just hope you understand...

oh jyeah,

OA please keep in touch with each other
cause planning to have a REAL gathering
since the last one fails
March 20th can do?
a picnic or barbeque?
please reply, through me tagboard
thanks

(:

2009-02-13T20:45:00.003+08:00

Graduation sucks sia!
of all the things i enjoy, was the picture presentations,
meeting up back with friends...
missed alot more of people actually, but they didn't attend
such as Azira, Zi Yang, Fana, Huda all...
Sutinah knows who i miss alot right?
and shhhh!

can't really come down to lepak for few days/weeks
got personal issues right now
no, no its not about relationship shits la
that one i'm putting aside
but more to my family things
cousins know alot about this
and it really frustrates, stress me up
but i try to come down time to time,
but i don't think i can...

jeling menjeling seh!
hahaha
takpe lah, i don't mind
i can siape...
ahaks....

and Azzrul
we are human beings
everyone one of us has something that we hate/love about
certain things people tend to get irritated about or so
so i'm telling you this,
i may not go back home with you all of the time
because my kind of person i love hanging out late
i love to extend the laughters/games to late nights
if i have the chance to overnight, i would gladly will
just so you know, everyone hates something about someone
i'm sure that everyone too hate me for something
but this is who i am
i put friends life ahead instead of mine
and it will never change
so, if this is who you are, just to let you know that
when we tend to follow things on what you did at lepak,
thats because we just like to disturb people
isn't that right?
we even disturb our own budak lepak
for one example, me?
what do everyone called me last time, that really hurts me?
SK? yes i admit that it hurts alot...
but i know that we are just playing with each other,
whether if its true or not, i don't care...
because i am who i am...
so if you think that some of us tends to not liking you nowadays,
we change the way we are, our language tend to get more hurtful
but we know our limits...
so Azzrul, i'm sorry if i can't go back home with you like always
but if i do feel like going home early or like few days i never come down
i tend to go back home late...
and about my phone, just sms me or my mum's number
but if never replied, both prepaid is of gone gone gone...
as in prepaid low uh!
ahaks

(:

2009-02-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

can't update me blog so often jyeah...
anything update mua at me number...
the 8429....
those who don't have...
hehehe
ask around la! hahaha

came down lepak the past monday...
played soccer at multi purpose hall...
create alot of noise of course...

then days after that...
stayed at home...
needa safe da monay from da Graduation yeah!
woooooo!
can't wait to meet back the class that i so far enjoyed with!
but sadly ended in just one year...
can't wait to meet Dorina, Yi Xiang, Sutinah, Syafiqah all...
most of all, mestilah Hasween Natalia babe!
ahaks, jumpe mu besok yeah kat itu Simei MRT sana uh!
pakai lawa2 tau kite jadi couple sekejap hahaha!
joking joking...
hmmm the rest not that sure comin' to join us after that
planning to meet at Food Culture for lunch...
hopefully most will be there...
but i doubt so uh..
haiya, very the troublesome uh!
hmmmm

meet you guys soon!
can't wait babeh!

Rasis lu punya hp itu bagus kan!
hahaha
ye lah orang tu kan birthday dier for cuties je...
me ngan Nard tak kan!
hahahaha

(:

2009-02-08T13:03:00.002+08:00

heard from news at Channel 5,
that i may be going in NS on 9th September...
seems like long, wonder what to do from now 'till
then, finding job, is the thing i'm doing...
and getting fitness back...

12th Feb going to ITE Graduation 2009 ( Jan Intake )
hopefully most of my classmates will be there
but all i know now is only Dorina, Yi Xiang, Hasween Natalia, Syafiqah
and me are the only ones going...
how sad
but going out with them to, most probably, Seoul Garden
Fana, i not really that sure whether Seoul Garden or picnic
contact Sutinah please, cause i'm just a follower for that occassion
so yeah..

Danial Rastaman comin' down to Tamp tomorrow,
well most probably, due to his work...
for now, playing takraw is the best i can do now..
cause the butt injury is still hurting though...

later going for massage at Bukit Gombak
on my knee
actually was suppose to be there at 2, but Cik Wan
is still outside so around 2.30 - 3.00 pm, Sodiq will be there...

Dance competition for MCYS Family Competition
will be held at MCYS Building, 4th Storey
4pm - 8pm
15th February 2009
Sodiq and Regena - Salsa dancing/Others
Regena, anything text/call me

2009-02-06T10:02:00.002+08:00

Nothing to do sia!
and Rasis!
STOP VIEWING MY BLOG THROUGH YOU HANDPHONE LA!
FUCK YOU!!!
hahahaha

yesterday, standard...
lepak here and there...
played soccer for awhile at multi, but ball burst
thanks to Khalil...
then played Donkey, a card game Davin knows about all..
very the interesting...

Today, going prayers, meeting friend...
Takraw i guess....
so jyeah!

(:

2009-02-04T10:39:00.002+08:00

fuck the butt/back of my thigh injury is really killing me
the more i sit longer the more the blood will stick to my pants/shorts....
now just have to tahan the pain uh...
its irritating shit...

this sunday, a soccer match is arranged, not sure playing...
most probably not...
cash and injured, the problem

most probably won't be coming down lepak
starting from today 'till next week Thursday at least...
going to save up money for Grads...
then save up for Saturday...

" Jangan dengar dari hati sebanyak-banyaknya,
ia boleh sakitkan diri mu lebih "

hmmm got this phrase from a passerby
but actually its true though...
but hey, i'm just letting out phrases that have meaning right?

* Traslated : Don't listen to your heart fully, it may hurt you even more

Syukriyah, thanks ehk
i waited from the time you put down..
tapi tak dapat call balik pon...
thanks ehk...

2009-02-02T09:14:00.002+08:00

errrr...
never get the chance to go Higher Nitec...
so now awaitin' for 27th March for Medical Checkup...
then just wait for NS then...
hmmmm
hopefully get Police though...
now just have to find job to support ownself...
which is obviously hard
but will keep on trying..

Syuk,
jangan putus asa that you think that you cannot do it...
you're lucky you're a girl tau
don't have to entertain those NS thingi's...
talk to your teacher, ask for help....
while i wait, i'll shut up, as what you told me kay?

(:

2009-02-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

Saturday...
brother's engagement
pictures, awaiting...

Sunday...
nothing much...
injured and sick now...

this coming week...
hmmmm
coming down lepak uh...
if i'm not sick okay uh
but if sick and still injured, rather not...
too painful
jeng jeng jeng...

can't wait for 12 Feb...
Sutinah!
you know why!
hahahaha

(:

2009-01-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

weekends pack
brother's engagement
soccer
cari itu Mat Khai!

kalau aku dapat tangan aku kat kau ehk Khai...
kau jaga la sial!
berani kau tampar perempuan ke pe!
mak bapak kau tak ajar ka pe boy uh!

'...people who "cares" about other people, care about themselfs... '

this phrase somehow came out just now when with
Khalil, Syafiq Ali, Wahab and Yahya...
out of the blue...
we were talking about relationships...
its interesting uh...
we gave out opinions why some people kept who they are dating with...
cause they have their own reasons...
so on and so for...

2009-01-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

ehk pompan,
kau berani cakap, tapi kalau depan muka aku cam cakap?
aku tunggu je uh, kalau tak aku jumpe kau!

2009-01-28T15:51:00.005+08:00

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

SYUK, HE LOVES YOU!!!

jgn marah Sodiq kay?
its like obvious sia!
he does things to make you smile, laugh...
he's trying to make you fall for him!
and yes, he did!
JANGAN DENY EHK!
(:

2009-01-28T13:36:00.005+08:00

back from Johor...
wanna stay longer, cause its stress free!
seriously, but missed friends alot...
nothing much happen, just enjoy self there

talked to mum on certain nights 'bout what's been keeping
me stressed up
mum gave opinions
thanks mum...

looks to me that bravery to say, coward to face is the person you are!
i'm not afraid to call you a coward!
my actions/ownself changes in front of you!
thanks ehk girl!
because of you, i'm becoming like this!
and yes, DARING I AM TO SAY THIS!
why?
think for yourself!
because of YOU...
all of this actions/things that had been done..
its all because of YOU!
and i don't care anymore!
and don't expect me to layan YOU la!
ehk perempuan!
pasal kau aku menyusah kan diri ngan family aku!
alah mane kau nak buat kesah!
pasal kau aku nye perangai dah berubah paham!
seriously siak kau!
kalau aku dapat tau yang kau balik ngan ex kau,
kau jgn kasi aku nmpk korang ehk!

TERIMAH KASIH EHK GIRL!
BAIK UH BABE!

2009-01-24T08:26:00.003+08:00

few reason's why i'm staying at Johor from today 'till Tuesday: -

i got alot of thinking to do
releasing stress
smoke alot
getting my pissed off mind away
getting myself right
my father
iqiah...

for father, fucking stressed up with him...
for iqiah, all i need is all the truths to be out...
i found out certain truths, but i want to hear it from you, yourself...

):

2009-01-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

what can i do to realise how much you meant to me?
what have i done?
is it something i said?
did the words " I never get the girls i want " make you do this?
please tell me honestly, and tell me whats the real truth kay?
no more lies, not anymore... i just dont want any more lies...
and the truth is all i needed...
if you do intentionally use me, tell me, and give me a reason..
please iqiah please...
i'm begging of you to tell me the truth asap...
please tell me...
i'm crying for not knowing the real truth...
please, did you really use me on any point of time?
tell me honestly, if you do, just say it, cause its all over...
please do this for me kay...
or just do this...
i don't want to trouble anyone, especially my family...
please....
just tell me, i won't yell, and that's a promise...
don't care about my feelings when telling me kay?
please Iqiah, i want to know everything, no more lies, not anymore...

):

2009-01-22T08:59:00.002+08:00

not going to be in SG this coming Saturday 'till Tuesday probably...
text me if you want, reply i wont...

today soccer at JYSS...
will update more soon...

3pm - 5pm
Junyuan Sec. School field
Alumni vs Alumni

2009-01-20T12:19:00.004+08:00

" I'll do whatever it takes to make that person happy, no matter what happen to me... "

this is who i am,
i'd been living like this for sometime
but when i found out something
before that person tell me, being it a bad thing only...
i won't be myself again...
don't expect me to be cheerfull as much,
expect all fakes!
and when i found out something,
don't hide it, tell me the whole big fat truth about it...
i've been hurt countless of times, i don't mind
it coming back at me again...

but if i ever found out that someone uses me
or do things to me just to get his/her wants...
i'll bet with you that i wont fucking care...
but you will always been in my mind, heart
being the person that i will never want to put my
eyes on ever again...

... being my loved ones ...

and for you!
you don't know what i know about you!
you don't know torture, suffering you brought!
one day, one damn bloody fine day...
all your heartless character will be brought up
again!
cause i'm going to tell you what i know!
whats the thing that makes me do these things!
whats everything that i'm doing now!
oh yes,
you want to know what i do now...
its all tortures, sufferrings!
that will me change into someone i dont
want to be ever again!

and when i do tell you what is the thing...
don't fucking hide it anymore
no more lies, no more truths keeping
inside of your own self...
and don't expect me to be the one "okay"
with it...
i'm not talking about just one person in my life...
just to whom it may fucking concern!

" Fuck the lies, Unscrew the truths... "

2009-01-18T20:04:00.003+08:00

i'm not myself again...
i'm not going home tonight...
i just want to be alone...
crying my eyes out, every now and then...
i'm totally crushed!
i'm feel like a bloody fucked up person!
oh wait...

I AM A LOUSY ASS MOTHERFUCKER RIGHT!

and yes, I'M NOT BEING MYSELF AGAIN !!
crying is the only thing that i do now and then...
for what...
for something i don't wish to say out....
thank you...
thank you sooo much...

maybe this is the red and dying evening....

2009-01-17T11:32:00.002+08:00

Nady, tak pe...
sebagai abang sedare, kawan, sesiape in your life...
i just want the best for you, sufferings you should not be taking it...
be reminded about what i said, Nadhirah said, everyone said...
okay?

somehow, i'm so confused, saddned, hearth-wrenching pains...
the confused part is im confused about where to go now...
saddned and heart-wrenching pains, things that i never expected...
but what is said and done, proceed i must...
in time to come of course, give me thousands of minutes, hundreds of hours...
dozen of days...
overall, i'm okay...

smsed Hasween, Aiz, Ikahchu, Danial Rastaman!
asked whether going to Graduation Ceremony...
confirmed going are me, Hasween, Ikahchu, Dorina Mei and Yi Xiang!?
Aiz last min, don't know can attend or not,
Dan, still not sure, Davin, never, Andres don't know...
c'mon sia, its like we meet again, i seriously hope alot of people
would come...
so after that we chill out together, make laughters again...

for what's the worst, it still comes...

for those memories, it wondering in my head...

for the love, quetion marks surrounding me...

2009-01-11T12:50:00.004+08:00

i guess you don't know how much you really meant to me...

seriously i never thought that this could end because of that!
for you its easy to just let go
i just can't believe that you moved on so easily!
all the words and actions, are just fucking lies....!!
be with with him, if that really makes you happy!!
okay fine yes im maybe too kind hearted for people to be able to step on my head!!
using me, seriously you done. but how could you!?
oh wait, is it because of what he did, yeah thats right....
all words and actions are just seem like lies......
dare you write/said those things, listening/reading it makes me bleed!
argghh, you wouldn't care....
people may say that you're heartless, but i gave no comments!!

2009-01-06T09:15:00.001+08:00

anything please contact me through my Handphone...

ask from those who have my number...

internet down

sorry people

2008-12-31T00:46:00.002+08:00

went out just now, with girl-fie of course...
went to TM, then hang out...
nothing much, but had wonderful time, as always...

plans for tomorrow,
morning maybe going to aunt's house to do some cooking...
then heading to Tampines, to the Countdown Party, at the stage there..
meeting Davin, Khairil and the rest then...
girl-fie, i hope she can, but i know she cant...
):

i maybe going to NS next year, which a definate no no for me...
well depends, if my appeal for the course that i want is accepted, thats great!
but if not, then NS is all i have to do!
i know many people said its good, yes i know, i'm actually am ready, but not PHYSICALLY yet!

looking forward to meet iqiah as soon as possible...
(:

2008-12-27T01:07:00.004+08:00

THURSDAY

went to meet Faris at Tampines,
then went to a "gig" at Tampines Vista RC
hahaha
then met Syafiq Ali, rode in his car, fetched Travis...
then went to Changi Beach, WAIT!!!
to see aeroplanes, not to find bapok uh!
mind you people! hahaha
then chatted, LAUGH OUR ASS OUT!
then ate at Changi Village, well only me though...
then went back to Tampines, whilst Faris and Syafiq Ali went home...
me and Travis hang out....
awwww... the night comes!!
hmmm, i don't know but this day just brings me to life...
well, read the tagboard if you must!
hahaha
best day of my life so far babe!
hahahaha

FRIDAY

went to meet Nadiah, THE COUSIN, and talk to her about things...
and Boncet, tak ya lah nak brag seh!
i never sia!!!
PEACE!!!
hehehe....
then met Peggy, chatted with her, drank Double Choco Frappe...
then i send Nadiah to Hospital, TO FETCH HER MOM!
don't think otherwise...
whilst Peggy went to meet her mum...
but yeah....
after that played soccer at Multi, met RASIS first!
chatted some things..
then met the rest...
then met Davin at around 11.15...
then went to 7-11, to buy ciggs...
then rushed to INTERCHANGE!!
to catch the last bus ride of course, eventually i got it...
SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH!!!...

* i'm deeply unsatisfied with my results currently,
i may be going for NS next year....
going to see my lecturer for some advice this monday...

):

TAGS REPLIED:
Rena : RENAAAAA BABE!!! hahaha
kak ila : i understand kak zila... i hope i get into it.... thanks for the advice and trust me no BAD THINGS!! hehee
Nadyiah : hahaha... shhhhh!!! Baik boss!!! hehehe and like why sia, have i done anything bad! hehe....
Peggy : HEY! i'm not like that!!! hahahaha PEACE BABEH!!!
MAS : hey tak sangka kamu lupa saya!! hahahaha... yeah!! talk to you soon yeah babeh!!?? (:
Nadyiah : hahaha...im not like that no more!!! BLUEK!! mind you ehh! hahaha
GF : hey darla... well, its like i'm on the phone with you sia! hahaha.. miss ya love ya... ((:

2008-12-24T22:55:00.005+08:00

was suppose to go to Farhan's Birthday party but can't..
due to certain family incident..
but everything's fine now..

went out to Lower Seletar, Jurong and Boon Lay alone...
just like gettin' breeze and all...
yeah...

felt like i never before!
25th December baby!
hahaha...
can say that i felt that the time of the year is today!!

(:

2008-12-24T18:15:00.002+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
Diq, Sodiq, Ben

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
so-geek / mok-fierce / boy

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
watch videos / listen to music / smoke

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
my eyes / right leg / right arm

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
my left leg / my eye sight / self?

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
malay / bugis / chinese

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
god / cockcroaches / truths

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
long sleeve jersey / basketball shorts / glasses

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
watch / hairband / wristband

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
MP4 / Ciggarettes / handphone

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
Raihan! / Disturbed / Alesana

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
soccer / being with friends / cousin's outing

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz / Boombastic - Shaggy / Rape Me - Nirvana

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
cutting down smoking / play more FIFA games / going out more often

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
foolishness / fall for the person i can't get / go to Singapore VS Vietnam game!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
love / honesty / trust

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
hmm smoking / littering / vandalism... (:

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
i love her / i'm craving for Double Choco Frappe / i hate Cristiano Ronaldo

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
her cuteness / funny / when she like acting to be sad?

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
lady like / sensitive / gatal-ness?

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
can't do tatoos / can't do piercing / can't get well easily

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
family outings / more cash for school / people carrying me around.... hehe

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
soccer boots / FIFA 09 / 10 thousand dollars?

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
myself / family genes / friends

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
photography / dancing / soccer

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
meet Shawn Milke and Wayne Brady / smoke / go out!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
teacher / CEO of a company / executive admin

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
Paris / New Zealand / Ko Samui

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
Pokemon / Totally Spies / Spiderman

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
Hasween Natalia / Nadiah Ayam / Nadhirah Hardy

THREE BOY'S NAMES:
Davin / Travis / Danial

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
go to my late grandfather's cemetry / go out with family to Ko Samui holiday / go to Paris with a special friend of mine...

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY:
Nadhirah! / Hasween! / Nurul Syukriyah!

2008-12-22T17:30:00.002+08:00

FUCKING PISSED!!!
well its a stupid thing to get pissed off at,
but...
VIETNAM WON AGAINST US!!!??
what the fuck happenned!!!???
well i'm totally upset by the way they played!!!
all of my friends who were there, were like screaming " BUTOH " to the Vietnamese...
we are cheering for Singapore 'till we lost our voices!
one of the cheers :

A-L-O-N-G... ALONG!
Let's Go Singapore, Let's Go!
and famous.... BUTOH!!!

hmmmm, fucking pissed sia!!!
hahaha

2008-12-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

got another phone call from MCYS...
sadly, never get the job..
haiya...
better luck next time there Sodiq..

rot at home again...
thought of going lepak, but my legs are killing me so yeah..
slept at evening...

Tomorrow going to watch Singapore VS Vietnam!
WOOOHOOO!!
going with Izad, meeting at Kallang MRT Stadium...
asked Danial, Rastaman, to come along...
same goes for Travis...
but they can't promise they can go, i'm cool with that..
gonna wear RED for the day!

Predictions: SINGAPORE 3 VIETNAM 0

2008-12-17T15:47:00.003+08:00

hmmmm
get from this certain blog...
"boys will be boys"
think back...
"GIRLS WILL BE GIRLS!"
hahahaha...
well not all actually, some still will be like doing the same things even though they know that
someone like them or like they are attached then they flirt la that la...
WHAT THE HECK!!!
hahaha

nowadays, lepak was soccer all the time
was okay with it...
so will keep fit, something like that...
watching Twillight this Friday i guess yes?
hahahaha...

" When someone starts to talk about a specific person more often, the feeling is there... "
and when its obvious girl, just don't try to hide it kay?
and don't say you have a strong feeling something won't happen, c'mon, its so obvious girl...

Whatever it is i'm happy for you kay?
be with him, cause i know that's what you want...
and it can happen...
just don't make it so negative thinking, think other ways...

2008-12-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

hmmm, not really feeling that well this week, went to lepak couple of times
then Friday went to rewang at auntie's house...
now rotting at home, cause don't really feel that well...
appreciated shit with cousins yesterday!
plans for next week:-

Monday - Outing with cousin and friend
Thursday - Going out with cousin to take result
the rest, anything can happen...

Did nothing nowadays!
just lepak, home, phone calls here and there...
damn i can't wait to work!
but not sure get or not again sia...
if get, good la, get own pocket money
if not, finding other jobs is a priority!

Missing my ITE friends/classmates!
Hasween, Azira, Danial, Sutinah, Shika, Syafiqah, Shafikah, Agnes, Dorina,
Farhanah, Huda, Hamdani, Farhan... lots more...

):

2008-12-11T00:54:00.003+08:00

i seem to not know what to blog nowadays...
same old things is happening,
lepak, meet cousins, trying to contact back ITE classmates to have an outing...
nothing much actually...
but won't be going online or whatsoever everytime cause i tend to go back home late nowadays...
so anything, for those who have my number, contact me through there or MSN me up...
oh yeah, SOMEONE forgot something sia!
how sad right?
hahahaha

(:

2008-12-07T16:34:00.006+08:00

one day lovers will dream of that undying kiss....
hmmm this words keep wandering in my mind...
and never getting the girl that i want...
is also in my mind...
cause thats true...
)':
Not really a fine, entertaining day, just rot at home, then went to Kenduri at 869 at Tampines
rode on my brother's new Black Bird
damn it was scary cause we are late, so he ride it like the fastest he can go!
but it was totally awesome and wicked cool!
then returned home, rot again...
haiya...
(:

2008-12-06T01:14:00.005+08:00

RULE #1 - People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 - Tag 3 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
-Definately Duh!

2. Would you fall in love with a girl younger than you?
-uh yah!

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- yeah for sure!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- give millions to family, enjoy life with loved ones!

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- possible... but what if my bestfriend is a guy... hmmmm...

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being loved of course!

7. List out your 5 favourite songs
- about a plane crash ( We Operate ), scary kids scaring kids ( Watch Me Bleed ), tokio hotel ( Monsoon ), saliva ( Always ), rascal flatts ( What Hurts The Most )

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- try to move...

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- hmmmm currently nothing in mind *will return to this*

10. What makes you angry?
- lies, no truth at all, fucking attitude...

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- hmmmm getting married i guess! ; )

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Family, loved ones, friends...

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- family of course!

14. Single or attached?
- single...

15. What is your favourite colour?
- black!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- see the occasion of course!

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- the one that i know more, such as longer...

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- should be, but the memories of it will still be there!

19. If you could do one thing now, what would it be?
- meeting my loved ones...

TAG ---- Nadhirah, Hasween Natalia, Afiqah

are you telling me the full truth Cet?
just tell me, i'm okay with it...

2008-12-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Finally my exams are over!
now i can return to doing the stuff i use to...
such as hang out, soccer, going to Johor and much more...
next week Hari Raya Haji already...
after that, then find a job...

(:

2008-11-30T15:45:00.004+08:00

This is just a random survey, told to do by Ms Nadhirah Ahmad...
hehehe

The person who tags you ?

Sutinah, Nadiah, Nadhirah

Your relationship with him/her/they ?

Sutinah- classmate

Nadiah- cousin

Nadhirah- close girl friend

Your five impressions of him/her/they ?

they are fun, smiling most of the time, enjoyable, understading, loveable

The most memorable thing she/he/they said to you ?

when they say anything please come to them...

If he/she/they become your enemy you will ?

i don't think so they will...

What is it that you want to tell her/him/they ?

well you guys know what i always tell you all yes? (:

Your overall impression of her/him ?

Cool people i guess, but they are very the nakal uh..

How do you think people around you feel about you ?

that's what they think, i can't tell people to judge me the way i want...

The most ideal person you want to be with ?

currently i'm single, and i don't know who...

On the contrary, the characters you hate about yourself ?

hmmmm, too irritating...

For the people that care and like you, say something to them.

i hope you are telling me truth people, and keep in touch babeh! (:

Pass this quiz to the people you wish to know how they feel:

1. Davin

2. Nardhirah

3. Hasween Natalia

4. Nadiah

5. Afiqah

6. Sharfirin

7. Nursyafiqah

8. Sutinah

9. Iqa

10. Danial

no.7 & 10 are together, will it be a good thing ?

OH MY! * no comments *

What is no.2 doing ?

Madrasah now...

When was the last time you chat with no.3 ?

Last thursday!

What kind of music does no.8 like?

Jiwangs i guess... * sorry tau *

What is no.10 doing now ?

Studying uh..

Is no.7 sexiest person in the world ?

hahaha maybe?

Does no.1 have any pets?

Turtle right? haha

Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends ?

They don't even know each other much!

What colour does no.4 like ?

Red!

Where does no.4 live ?

Bedok...

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 ?

No she's just a friend of mine... (:

Talk about something for no.1.

Someone who understand me..

Where is no.2 studying at ?

Junyuan Secondary School, the kental school...

Does no.5 & 9 get along well ?

don't even know each other...

What is no.10 hobby ?

hmmmm, appreciating SHITS! ya man!

What is no.5 surname ?

malay/muslims don't have surname uh!

Is no.4 att/sgl ?

Single!

Does no.6 have any siblings ?

Yes, 1 sister... !

2008-11-23T23:27:00.003+08:00

went to my cousin's weddings, both the sister and brother...
it was so fun meeting my cousins again there...
and now they know that i'm the crazy one!
met Nadiah, Rena, Kak Zila all...
Cik Jan, was so happening too...
same goes for Cik Mansoor...
i was surprised by the Bangrah dance, its first time for me yes...
ate quite alot there...
make new friends/cousins should i say..
and bullied all my little cousins below my age of course!
sorry Nadiah, Reymi and the rest!
hehehe..
meeting Nek Mok was okay, laughed alot...
met Tok Busu also, damn i really missed my aunties, uncles, everyone actually...

then went home with Mak Piah, Kak Samiah and Abg Syam...
ate at Banquet then went home via 854...
slept throughout the journey of course...
then home!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN AND JESSICA!!!

2008-11-22T16:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HASWEEN NATALIA ( 20 Nov )

went to school, just for few hours of school, or should i be straight forward, just 2 hours of it...
then had lunch at Cafe 1 with Fit, Danial, Bi, Ziee and birthday girl, Hasween...
me and Danial planned to treat her lunch, so ya, she was insisting that she wanna use her money...
but i pushed her cash aside i paid for her meal and drink...

Friday ( 21 Nov )

went to school again, this time the main motive is for the POA Mock Test and the leftovers cash!
everyone got $15 only!
then me, Ikah and Danial went to have lunch at Cafe 1 again, and inside jokes comes...
then went lepak with Mummy, Bi, Danny, Danial, Ziee, Linda and Boy...
i promised mummy once that before year ends, lepak with her once at least...
so yeah have to keep that in mind...

And i still need to buy a fucking earpiece for me MP4!
any cheap ones in the house? the ciklak one also can uh, the brand like from China also can...
PLEASE!!! free also can uh, and price approximately around $15, thats what i said
the LOUSY brands also can uh...

2008-11-18T16:48:00.002+08:00

I hear... a voice say don't be so blind...

Its telling me all these things...

That you would probably hide...

Am i... your one and only desire..

.Am I the reason you breath...

Or am I the reason you cry...

Always... always... always... always... always... always...

I just can't live without you...

I love you...

I hate you...

I can't get around you

I breathe you...

I taste you...

I can't live without you...

I just can't take anymore...

This life of solitude...

I guess that Im out the door..

.And now Im done with you...

I feel... like you don't want me around...

I guess I'll pack all my things...

I guess I'll see you around...

It's all... been bottled up until now...

As I walk out your door...

All I can hear is the sound...

Always... always... always... always... always... always...

I just can't live without you...I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
This life of solitude...
I guess that Im out the door..
.And now Im done with you...

I love you...

I hate you...

I can't get around you

I left my head around your heart...

Why would you tear my world apart...

Always... always... always... always...

I see... the blood all over your hands...

Does it make you feel... more like a man...

Was it all... just a part of your plan...

The pistol shakin in my hands...

And all I hear is the sound...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
This life of solitude...
I guess that Im out the door...
And now Im done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
This life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
And now Im done with you...
Always...
Always... Always...

2008-11-15T01:53:00.009+08:00

FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!
i never get what i wanted right!?
time flies and it always ended up the same!

i always feel as though i'm like crushed..
this is the truth..
somehow when i'm attracted to someone that i like..
i will always end up alone...
its either that the person is of greater expectation,
not interested in any relationships,
or what so ever...
its like somehow, i ALWAYS go for the wrong girl...

and people get to see me in school, but won't be able to see me outside with home clothes...
and if i'm changing, DON'T FUCKING BOTHER!!
and don't bother asking or knowing where i gone to/doing, DON'T GIVE ANY FUCK!
and most of all, DON'T FUCKING PRETEND THAT YOU'RE HERE!!!

2008-11-13T19:56:00.002+08:00

and i'm not going to be myself...
certain stuff is back in my mind...
sorry people..

2008-11-12T02:01:00.003+08:00

didn't go to school, went out with cousin to watch movie!
bought combo 2 at E-Hub, and trust me the hot dog is LONG, TENDER and JUICY!!
hahaha

after that, went to meet Azmi, Khalil and Hardy at dome...
had a breaking session with them, then came along the rest, Jufliano and all...
jokes were around, watched videos all...
and thought Jufliano can send me home, but hahaha...
can't...
YISHUN!!!!
hahahaha

and fyi, i may go for a study break starting next two weeks...
going to concentrate on my studies...
hope you guys understand...
cheers mates...

2008-11-09T23:05:00.002+08:00

played soccer with KRFC today,
even though lost 6-1, felt happy though, a kicking at field since 4 months ago...
played my bit as a defender...
then chilled at Brendon's crib, jacuzzi, swimming and all...
walked to the nearest, yet far, bus stop with Andres and Izad...
took 854 to Yishun and back home...
and fuck, i got sore ankles, and i injured, the places that i least expected...
MY BUTT!!
don't bother checkin it guys! hahaha
got a test tomorrow, BEG, damn gonna study for it...
and study for my POA and BEO exams, and class test all...

PEACE OUT YAW'LL

2008-11-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

trying to lesser the lepak and hang outs...
ineed to buck up on my studies...
if i'm unavailable to make it to Higher Nitec, most probably i'll be heading to N.S.
if i can't make it, i'll sign on as Police, 5 years then...
so gotta need the time and all to study...
if i do make it to Higher Nitec, hmmm, i'm not really sure which course am i interested in currently though...
okay, i admit that i currently stressed up with studies, for those things that i cancelled or going out that i cancelled, i'm terribly sorry, i'll make it up to everyone after 2nd December at least...
i'll be going back home mostly every monday to friday, my possibility of hanging out is lesser now...
and i sprained my left knee again...

2008-11-04T15:37:00.002+08:00

just move on and stop asking what happenned...
i'll be fine...
and for those who thinks that i'm angry/whatsoever at him/her...
don't get me wrong, cause i'm not...
i have my own personal problems, and i just don't wish to say it out...
hope you guys understand...

2008-10-31T18:49:00.008+08:00

only people that i entertain via messages or calls, are my family...
not going to entertain anyone...
don't bother asking me what/who am i targeting, angry or whatsoever about...
pissed me off, i'll piss your ass out!

don't bother of asking me out or so, cause i may deny it...
FUCK OFF!!

2008-10-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

And we both go down together
we'd stay there forever
just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
and never let go

well i'm thinking of the worst things
that i could say to you
but a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

i could only sing you sad songs
and you could sing along
and you could see the melody
that's been calling out your wrongs
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
but i never told you everything
i'm losing hope and fading dreams
and every single memory along the way

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

and we both go down together
and stay there forever
just try to get up
and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

2008-10-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK KNNCB!!

2008-10-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

Nyayie Bedah
R.I.P at the age of 85 years old...
she passed away at Johor's hospital, due to diabetes and low blood collesteral...
as i writing down this post, im crying...
tears flows down my cousin's laptop...
i'm sorry if my mood changes this few weeks...
i'm still can't get over it...
sorry people...
if i tend to be moody, i'm sorry...

2008-10-16T19:06:00.003+08:00

Muhammad Raihan, telah meninggal kan kite...
i dont expect it...
he's such a good person...
a good guitarist....
a wonderfull human being...
yet his life was taken away at the age of just 18!
but i know GOD loves him more...
love you Raihan...

Nyayie Bedah...
jangan la tinggal kan ku...
aku sayang mu..

* she was admitted at Johor Hospital due to diabetes *
crying my eyes out when heard she got nazak...
i dont want to lose her....

2008-10-15T00:22:00.003+08:00

hmmm
some how what i done,
the time i wasted for,
the commitments.....

it just seems to stay the same
i really want this thing to move on...
i don't wish to find out whats your status
cause i know i'll be down...
getting hints from friends, my own peeps,
tears just kept rolling my eyes when i think of it...

you want me to be your (insert)
but there's nothing being done...
wonder why i text you all these while?
hmmm bet you don't know how i truly feel towards you...

SERIOUSLY SPEAKING, AND TRUTHFULLY SPEAKING...
my trust towards you are definately fading...
i gave you another chance for you to gain my trust back...
but slowly, its fading...
thats it, i gave you my trust, and all i wanted is trust back...
hmmm its so hard for me to get that isn't it...
and you know who you are...

2008-10-11T23:26:00.003+08:00

went out to meet Farhan at Tampines
ride with him on his KR
when to Hamdani's house for an Open House...
Farhan and me were shy to go in...
but in the end i was the one who persuade him to take off his shoes and went in
ate nasi briyani, nuggets all
then went to shell to top up his oil
then followed him to meet his friend
then he sent me home, his first time sending someone to the North side...
but thank god we reached Yishun safely, after seeing an accident near Tampines Polyclinic
then smoked before he went home...
wrote 2 lyrics at home since thursday...

2008-10-11T14:24:00.004+08:00

never update for quite sometime...
hmmm...

went out with me classmates on Wednesday to jalan raya
it was totally fun, with houses all around Singapore..
from Hasween's, to mine, to Aiz's, to Danial's....
from North to West then to East...
cool!
and Aiz owe me duit tambang taxi!!
hehehe * joking *
then went to sleep at Farhan's house, cause the last house was at Bedok...
so slept at his house with Syafiq, my another cousin...
laughing was all we do that night...

Thursday went out with the lepak people, raya again...
it was fun also...
Davin and Andres wore the baju kurung and both look hot seh!
hahaha
then went to east side houses, then to the central, never go to the North, and West houses...
cause it's late!
haha
then slept at Shafiq's house...
watch Scary Movie 2 while eating supper...
disturb Acap, i was doing! haha
then the next day, lepak, breaking with FlairNation's Azmi since Jeremy and Daniel was at RP don't know do what...
then went home...

Friday, 3rd October

2008-10-04T08:25:00.002+08:00

when to Tampines to discuss about the jalan raya thing...
went with Azzrul, met Faris, Wahub and Syafiq Ali...
then along came Fathu, Rasis, Hilmi, Andres...
chatted then Hadi Bboy, Izad came to go to Andres's Birthday Party at Elden's house...
wasn't invited so never go...
then met Fiqah, Ogi, Nurul, chatted with them...
then met Azzrul's big cousins at Tampines Mall...
walked around, smoked here and there, laughing around...
then went back home, via cab around 1 am...
overnight at Azzrul's house, computer usage, phone calls, and watch Kecoh Kecoh Nak Raya...

* sometimes, i felt like i was being played with...

2008-10-02T11:57:00.003+08:00

First day of Raya wasn't really what i expected though...

first. when to Nenek's house at Bedok, it was okay...
then went to Johor to meet my another nenek, my mum's side...
in the afternoon it was okay...
then i slept from around 7pm till 9, woke up...
then i started to cough my lungs out...
in the car, heading to checkpoint, my flu came...
i was sneezing all the time, my breath was shortened, my lungs were crammed!
i couldn't actually breath, the next thing i knew i was at a 24 Hours Clinic...
my eyes were swollen...
the doc says i got sudden asthma, breathing shortage, flu, swollen eyes and coughing...
what a day...

RESTING MY FUCKING ASS AT HOME TILL FRIDAY AT LEAST

2008-09-30T04:24:00.005+08:00

YAY!
Hari Raya Aidil-Fitri!
not really in the mood so much but still, for this Raya, i just want to ask for forgiveness, for all the things i done wrong to you people...

* MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN *

kalau ade masalah yang ku telah lakukan, saya minta maaf pada anda...
maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua kaum muslimin dan musliman..

kepada kawan ku yang ku selalu duduk dengan, kawan ku disekolah, sedara mara ku, kawan ku yang berada di Bukit Gombak, Pasir Ris, Jurong, kawan ku yang di Friendster, maaf kan ku untuk segala masalah ku telah lakukan....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL MUSLIMS!
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

2008-09-27T12:56:00.003+08:00

this is really sad for me to hear...
knowing that someone hates me for being an ITE student...
i'm proud to be an ITE student...
its not the end for us, we are learning more and more nowadays...
and to judge me by my looks...
and, the most dissappointing one...
to ever compare myself with my dad...
yes i know he's done something wrong that effects our family...
but why you have to do that?
don't ever compare me and my dad as the same...
he is what he is...
i am what i am...
my dad did wrong things...
i too....
but telling me that you're saying that i'm the same as my dad!?
telling me that you HATE me just because i'm his son!?
to tell everyone the truth, i'm not proud to be his son...
i'm proud to be Ruziah bte Mohamad's son...
how could you say that....
HATE me all you want...
but never ever judge me as a ITE student or compare me with my dad!

FUCKFUCKUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

2008-09-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

i admit alot of things this week
i don't know why
hmmmm
chatted with cousin Ianaa, hahaha
its fun and funny though!
but....

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

2008-09-26T01:01:00.003+08:00

my heart was torn
i'm such a useless person
never see it coming
the knife that were taken out, pierce right through me again
knowing that i'm at fault now, really brings me down to pieces
fine, i accept the fact is MY fault, not yours
for your info, i forgave you since yesterday
knowing that your friends now knows
and now they are saying that i'm the bad guy
fine i accept it again
i don't want to create any trouble
thats what i've been saying to you that i don't deserve a wonderful person like you
cause why? you should know why..

today was funny at lepak place
we decided to turn on songs of Hari Raya
and Rasis made a joke about instead of those normal genre songs
change it to hardcore/post-hardcore/etc type!
imagine the pakciks/atuks all take off their kain sampings and like swing it !
HILARIOUS!!
loads more actually!
hahahaha

2008-09-25T00:23:00.004+08:00

i'm so confused...
Raya this year, not the best one for sure...
soon its going to be over...
and i can happily move on...
but its gonna be some painfull thing ever happened...

2008-09-23T01:50:00.004+08:00

went out with mum, brother and his gf to geylang!
the main thing was to go to Johor but cancel cause Kak Nisa got to attend work early the next morning...
so went to meet Kak Nisa and brother at First Lady at TKC...
then saw Faziela! ( my ex-collegue at Sakura )
then we went jalan2 first before heading to Arnold's Chicken for break fast!
ate 2 pieces of chickens, same with mum, but brother and Kak Nisa at 3 each!
WOW!...
then Kak Nisa treated us Kuih Raya and one set of baju kurung for mama!
very nice you know!
then went our seperate ways, mum took MRT with me, whilst brother and Kak Nisa went off..
then met Danial at BG MRT... while mum went home...
supposedly to meet Davin but he was late...
so i went up to Danial's crib with his brother, knowing her mum and dad all...
then headed back down to BG MRT to meet Davin, smoke a lil...
then rushed to take the last train! hahahahaha

2008-09-19T15:29:00.003+08:00

YAY!!
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!
3 - 4 WEEKS OF IT!!
HARI RAYA WHEN HOLIDAY!!

* 22nd Sept 2008 - go Johor with Abang, Kak Nisa and Mum
* 29th Sept 2008 - Straighten hair and highlight, maybe cut hair again

2008-09-18T01:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FANA!!!

well celebrated Fana's birthday today...
it was totally awesome..
well here it goes...

Danial came to my house as early as 12 cause he got a ring from Farhan,
saying that less people attending class so he rang me to come to my house...
he chatted with mum, on loads of things...
then we headed back to his place cause he need to change for the occasion...
then met Huda at Bugis Station via MRT...
head to any party shops to merchandise those party accesories...
such as Party Poppers, Balloons all...
then we headed to Bugis Junction to purchase a cake for Fana...
went to Four Leaves and saw this marvellous Chocolate Classico...
it was amazing, the chocolate and all...
anyways, we decided to purchase it and put name on it... saying ;

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY FANA-Conda !!! ( Huda's idea )

so we told them that i'm gonna collect it at around 7.30...
so we decided to head to Singapore Zam Zam to reserved a place but to no avail..
so we decided to hang there 'till everyone came...
Hasween came first, then came Davin, Hamdani and Ikahchu...
we ordered 2 Medium Chicken and Mutton Murtabak...
it was fufilliing!
ask Huda for any confirmation... trust me!...
so at around 7.20 me and Danial went back to the cake shop to take it...
it was splendid indeed!!
then headed to Shisha place...
hang around smoke some of it...
ordered few Cokes and 2 Fries...
then waited for Feey and Aiz...
but got to know that Aiz was unable to make to some personal things ( i know )...
so Feey coming alone then...
so we gave the signal to Farhan to bring Fana up...
so we all got ready to surprise her!..
she was in tears! Happy Tears!!!
thats what i'm looking for....
she hugged Huda... i was holding the cake, the rest was singing the Birthday song and all...
then its time to blow the candles, heres the trick, 2 of them are difficult ones.... sooooo....
" FANA blow lagi!!..... FANA masih ade!! BLOW BLOW!!!"
it was hilarious... awww wished i could give her a hug though... haiya...
anways, after she sat down, THEN Feey came....
hahahaha
she was late, SUPER late... but nevermine as long as everyone, not really, was here, we're happy!...
then cut the cake, chatted, laughed our ass out...
took plenty of photos! TRUST ME ON THIS!!! ( view Hasween, Fana and Huda's blog )
then its time to bring out the prezzies!!!
she was told to open the small one first though...
so one by one, a New Puma Watch, a Shirt and a Cap, from Huda, Hamdani and Farhan...
then came to mine and Hasween...
first we closed her eyes... then ask her to take out the one thats not flat...
she pulled out... and CLICK! she was shocked to see an toy aeroplane...!!!

* You want them kan!? hahahah *

then she laughed, everyone did! hahaha... then she read Hasween's card, it was meaningful!!
then we ate the cake, chatted and pictures.... AGAIN!!!
then we thought that thats enough, headed down after settling the bill..
and POP! there goes the PARTY POPPERS!!!
hahaha everyone was scared of the balloon popping thing! Especially FARHAN!! hahaha...
then headed to a makan place cause Farhan and Feey wanted to eat...
there we took pictures again!!!
( see Hasween's blog )
then headed back home catching the last train i suppose....
went seperate ways!
hahahaha

* Seriously speaking i never had an outing like this ever!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FANA!!!....
and hope to do that soon!!
and i want the pictures!! hahaha

2008-09-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

today somehow, like one of the funniest day ever...
hahaha

went school to have ma exam, Media Developing and Publishing...
it was like okay, not so hard no so easy actually, but yeah...
then actually, was thinking of going to BEO, but thanks to some SETANS!!
* jangan marah ye Aiz, Sis Fika and some others... *
then decided to go lepak...
with Davin, Andres, Danial, Ohudaism, Fana-ness, Farhan Ong, Hadi...
the fun, is all there..
somehow Fana seems like down and all...
so we decided to cheer her up by acting!
Danial becoming the Prata Man, Davin becoming the Ang Moh Guy and Farhan, the standard Jiwang Him...
it was hilarious, with all the laughters, damn my jaw hurts!
anyway, Nadiah, forgot to bring her house keys!
and she decided to come back to RC there and meet me, okay then chatted, giving lecture...
then send her home, oh here comes the best part...
i was talking to her, then she say the FUCKFACE...
i, with the dash in my mind, called Adib...
he came and he was like oh great!
so we decided to make him jealous and all...
Adib tried to hug her, but of course she don't allowed though!
then we chatted and all, hahaha..
knowing that he's jealous made me laugh my ass out!
then Adib started to act sarcasticly towards her la, here and there...
then she boarded the bus 69.. with the rest of me classmates...
then went back lepak, and me, Travis, Gio, Izad and Andres went to Food Palace to break fast...
whilst Adib and Davin went back...
then met Izzah, Nurul and Syafiqah and void deck...
chatted and met S.Ali also...
then went back home with Travis and Gio...

Damn this day was fun!
LOL!!..

* FANA-NESS B'DAY COMING!!!
nak ipod, camera, telephone?... hehe

2008-09-14T16:13:00.002+08:00

went to hospital yesterday due to my knee sprain..
i somehow got the wrong position on my knee and i heard a sound coming from my knee area..
i fell down on to the floor..
the pain was really unbearable..
so my brother decided to send me to hospital to check it out..
shockingly not much people was there at the particular hour..
so went to see the doc, doc says "Need plenty of rest, go home after school and take this painkillers to relax the pain" and " I give you MC for Monday"..
but not going to use it, Monday is ma Exams, MDP..
but will be walking with limps to school and other places..
aiyo sibeh chialat sia!!

** Fana's Birthday Coming!

2008-09-13T14:34:00.004+08:00

FRIDAY ~~

went to school as per usual, just went for the first and last lesson, MDP...
POA was cancelled cause there's nothing more left to study for!
then hangout with Shika, Eqa, Su and Danial at level 1...
then met Hadi and Rasis...
and decided to head to Blakang Skolah straight..
then met Adib at Interchange...
then we decided to prank called Fathu about the ciggarettes...
met him at pondok and he was like laughing and asking for forgiveness from Adib for shouting at him on the phone...
haha
then went to RC to lepak, then Travis, Shafiq Ali, Faris and Rauf came by...
i was lying down on the table when ma mum called Adib to talk to me..
she was with Mak Piah... or should i say MAMA..
she invited me to head down to Geylang to breakfast together.. then in the end she decided to come down to Tampines, just to breakfast with me mum, me and me friends...
so Davin, Adib, Travis, Andres and Hilmi all headed to Food Culture along with me to me them..
each one gets $10 for their breakfast...
they get to keep the change after that...
and all get lecture on SMOKING! hahaha
cause she's a teacher so we gotta understand yeah!
and when we are leaving she gave us all $10 dollars for expenses, but for me, there's more la!
hahaha
everyone was like happy and all..
so we headed back to Blakang Skolah via 69...
saw Farah, i use to babysit her when she was a baby...
and now she's all grown up!
then met Fathu, Rasis and Nadhirah (who gotten back from KKH just few hours ago)
chatted here and there, till around 10.30..
accompany Davin home, and me and Travis had a long walk/talk...
very interesting to know 'bout each other!
then got back home...
sorry to some people..
and photos is all in ma friendster..
so check it out yaw'll..
bought new ciggarettes; MARLBORO ICON

2008-09-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

somehow, i felt as though i'm heartbroken..
the reasons maybe pathetic or so..
but i just can't lift myself up again..
falling dozens of time, getting up, bearing the pain..
i felt as though i did something wrong..
yes in my life i know, there's plenty of sins i done..
but why this have to come now..
at this moment of time..
my heart sinks the moment ur name was being metioned with someone..
i know its just a meet up or so, but it brings me down to the ground..
tears feel my eyes..

guess i was true before..
never gonna __ __ ____ ever again..!!

2008-09-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

for what i'd done to 2 people..
i'm sorry..
i'm not asking for ur both forgiveness..
i'm just telling u both..
as for one, i really hope that we can leave this out and still chat..
as for the other, i dont mind if u dont wanna be my friend..
i'll accept the fact that it is..
dont bother asking who...

2008-09-06T14:21:00.003+08:00

don't bother asking me why...
feelings that tearing me apart...
one thing for sure, i gave up on one thing...
that one thing really hurts me alot this few months...
don't think i'll ever have confidence in it ever again...
i know i've got friends to thanks for their advice, being Nadhirah one of the first...
thanks for encouraging me and trying your best to advice me...
but whatever it is, its going to stay, cause when i think and want that..
it hurts alot...

** almost did a baby freeze when going home just now... SLIPPERY LA BEB!!

2008-09-06T01:04:00.002+08:00

THURS ~~

went school, was okay..
IZAD never puase..
*look who's talking...

when home straight after school...
needa go to Bukit Gombak meet ma friend...
my first time meeting her, so i reach there at 4.30
the meeting time was supposedly to be at 5 though..
i sat for awhile, then saw Danial!!
went his house to smoke and meet his lil' bro
then met her and Danial, the he went home whilst i follow her..
do some studying and knowing each other...
breakfast... only JJ Uncle Janggut Bandung and Dolphin drink...
hahaha
then send her home around 10...
i reached home around 11+...
then chatted a while..
then KNOCKOUT on the computer table, woke up realising the time was at 3+..
hahaha

FRI ~~

went school late..
do some project...
then stress over POA..
then finish school go FP buy food!
hahaha
then go lepak place met Syafiq Ali, Faris and the rest, with Davin, Danial and Andres..
played a lil' card games and soccer...
then Davin went home with Danial...
Ali went home due to any distractions from the sins!
haha
then Azzrul came.. and i went off soon to meet me COUSIN!!!
talked to her bout how she got into ma family tree all..
very interesting yet shocking...
hahahaha
met Azzrul, Hilmi, Andres and another guy..
played Bluff... and Azzrul get alot of tricked!
hahahaha
*POOR HIM!!
haha
then went home...

till here... cheers...

2008-09-03T10:38:00.003+08:00

* Bulan Ramadhan *

Melaksanakan kebajukan dari ibadah berganda pahala ~
Membuat dosa menggandakan dosa juga ~
Kalaupun tak dapat berpuasa ~
tapi tetap masih jaga perangai sebab dosa dan pahalanya tetap berganda ~

* Banyakkan Zikir *

1) ALLAHUMASOLLI ALA SAI YIDINA MUHAMMAD

2) SUBHANALLAH

3) LA ILLA HA ILLALLAH

2008-09-01T11:01:00.002+08:00

31st August----

supposedly to be my big day, but i just never celebrate like how i use to.
woke up early, prayers, wishes...
* THANKS FOR THE WISHES PEOPLE, APPRECIATE IT *
use the com till around 4, then met my friends at belakang sekolah, to go to Terawih Prayers..
Only me, Adib, Rasis and Zai was there, Fathu came in late...
got back home around 12 like that, chatted with Nadhirah, Adib, Nadiah, Rasis, Jessica and Hafiz...
Thanks for the MSN wishes too peeps...
I find out the most dreadfull thing that ever happened to me...
i found out that someone, is somehow related to me!
i'm so fuckingly shocked, when i saw her typings, my heart was beating so fast than an F1 Driver, yeah i know so lame...
but it shocked me to the core to know that...
hmmmmm....
all i know now we are just friends...
Thats All...
** THANKS FOR THE WISHES **
Bi Shun, Nadiah, Nadhirah, Khairil, Azzrul, Rasis, Andres, Zai, Zulaikha, Farrah, Sabrina Tan, Amalina, Zakir, Airie, Arnia, Pei Chan, Sharfirin, Izad, Peggy, Iqa, Travis, Zheng Yuan, Basil, "Aura", Atikah, Fatin, Hilmi, My Mum...
** THANKS FOR THE GIFTS/SPENDS **
Nadhirah, Nadiah, Couzin Fir, Mak Piah...

2008-08-31T07:41:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY-----

went back to JYSS!
meet up with da group..
standard Adib is late...
DUH!!!
SUPRISINGLY... DAVIN WAS EARLY *CLAPS*
hehehe
watched Danial solo performance, totally wicked!
Beatboxing, no words can explain, totally phenominal!
the rest, nah nothing special...
then lepak for awhile, then met my couzin, Fir, to accompany him to ICA...
damn his face looks child-like
hahaha
then smoke uh standard beb!
haha
then went to certain malls..
walk here and there, then he treated me LJS...
actually no need uh, just a wish will do!
hahahaha

*THANKS CUZ!!!*

SATURDAY----

went out with Nadiah
went jalan2 at Vivo
nothing much actually, just walk, chillin.. talk here and there..
then she kept saying that she need to buy something for her friend's birthday, not saying WHO!!!
hahaha
then after sending her at her bustop, she need to take 21 to go to Geylang to meet her mum and sis..
then she gave me the Dued'O chocs!!
it was marvellous!
hahaha

* THANKS NADIAH!! *

reached home around 9, went out with relative, to Swensens, makcik blanja me there, and i was like in heaven..
STOMACH BLOTTED!!!
DAMN!!!

*THANKS MAK PIAH!!!*

2008-08-27T14:46:00.003+08:00

haa
in school
nothing better to do right!
MUAKAKAKAKA!

k today the day sucks as per usual!
then should be going back home straight cause i'm DAMN FUCKING TIRED!!
ciggs all to meself!!
kakakakaaaa...

hmmm don't know uh, like all of a sudden FUCKING HYPER!!!!
hahaha
now my hair i never use gel uh, only when going out to town or with anyone uh, then GELLING UP me hair!!
~~ LOL ~~

saving up money for FASTING MONTH, and for birthday/s!!!
FANA's BIRTHDAY COMING!!!
DECEMBER BABIES, LEK SUA!!
hahahaha

2008-08-27T00:34:00.003+08:00

i know i've been living like a night life this few days
cause i can't sleep!
never go school, went to see ma NENEK!
hahaha

friday, got teman my couz, go make IC...
sat, going out...
sun, going out and TERAWIH BABY!!!

CANT WAIT FOR PUASA!!!
WOOOHOOOO!!!

INSYALLAH i will puase everyday, SEMBAHYANG SEMUA WAKTU!!!
TERAWIH PON BABY!!
hahaha

Lepak have to cut down, but can save money!
MUAKAKAKAKA
and can cut down on CIGGS!!
ooooooo!!!
hahaha

well hope my sickness get well yeah!!
haha
and hoping that this years 31st August being the best one, cause i'm living with the best of friends ever in ma life!!

CONGRATS TO FARHAN FOR THE BIKE LICENCSE!!!

2008-08-24T09:25:00.003+08:00

i'm living a life thats full of trouble..
got into trouble with someone - SETTLED
punch my dad - SETTLED

theres loads of sins i'd done this few months
as for the fasting month, i really would like to turn over a new person..
*not going to be in wonderfull mood this coming week*

2008-08-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

not being my usual self
angry at this certain someone...

because of him, this thing happened...

BITCH!

2008-08-20T00:52:00.002+08:00

hmmm to cut or not to cut...

feel like cutting, but its kinda of a waste...

hmmmmm

~~~ WHAT THE HECK ~~~
keeping the long hair, DYING *maybe burgundy or light red*
STRAIGHTENING is a must !!
urgh, i feel so terrible..
i feel as though i can just breakdown any moment..

2008-08-19T00:11:00.001+08:00

...AS YOU WISH...

Life is meaningless without you

Love can be such a beautiful torture

My heart breaks as I long for you

Love can be such lovely torture

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down

Anyone who tries to stand in front of me

Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told of our love will never die

I've slain the most unholy things, endured such terrific pain

Finally I'll feel your caress again

I've braved the cold and lonely seas, I have prevailed against the odds

Then again...

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down

Anyone who tries to stand in front of me

Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss

Not of Romeo or Juliet

Stories told our love will never die

Will you forgive what I've done to give you four white horses?

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss

Not of Romeo or JulietS

tories told our love will never die

2008-08-17T06:40:00.003+08:00

i dont know whats my feelings towards her now...

i know i like her, shes adorable, kind, and have the personalities that i like...

oh no, im not talking bout that "person"

another one...

we went out once, and she seemed very opened to anything...

easy to start a conversation with...

but hmmm, i just dont know what my feelings towards her...

i know i kept thinking bout her, both in ma mind and heart...

but i just can't seem to see us that long...

well maybe my thoughts really came over me,

trying not to give her a chance...

maybe because of her ex that made me think twice...

well whatever it is, i'll try to make her feel better...

AND YES!!!
FASTING MONTH IS COMING!!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT!!

2008-08-16T13:37:00.004+08:00

hmmm

just feel i wanna beat the hell out of that SHAZRIN GUY!!

oh he yet to know the real me!

nevermine, come teachers day, i'll be in JYSS, waiting for that son of a bitch!
oh yeah, beating the hell out of him is my main priority now...
damn it'll feel good!

2008-08-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

hmmmm

i just dont know why

but when i listen to sappy songs/love songs...

i tend to not listen or just plug in the MP4 and listen to other songs..

why is this happening to me...

i tend not to talk to some people in my class...

WTMF shit is wrong with me...

Kasturi said to me that everyone wants to see me smile again...

i'm sorry that i can't smile so much these days...

i never talk to Aiz, Hasween, Wan Chin, Hwee Li, Miao Hui. Sutinah and loads more...

i just will give a lil' smile and kept moving on..

WHAT THE FUCK!

even my cousin thought i becoming to be FANATIC!
FUCK MAN!!

2008-08-14T12:35:00.003+08:00

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to sayAnd watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2008-08-12T18:45:00.003+08:00

** Date with butt slapper, its just a joke peeps! Sorry for the inconvenience!! **

SUNDAY
morning, got JC 2008 at boon lay!
did not get through the second round!!!
~~ how sad ~~
afternoon, went jamming with Yahya, Kid, Davin and Faris
Rasis got stomach ache so can't make it!
~~ TOO BAD ~~
anyways, jam with them its like totally awesome!!
HAHAHAHA
MONDAY
went out with my close partner
nothing much to say in there, cause we are like guys and like so boring yes?
~~ SMOKE AFTER SMOKE AFTER SMOKE ~~
went to blakang schools, chit chatter chit chit!
its gonna be Yahya's last day, before Hiatus!
hmmm, had wonderful time with him all!
and then got home, sleep!
MUAKAKAKAKAKA
hmmmm, wonder WHY!??

2008-08-10T13:23:00.002+08:00

got a date with butt slapper tomorrow!

WOOOHOOO!!!!

2008-08-09T21:54:00.005+08:00

9th august

somehow, this day just seem to be like others

and i just wanna go out to watch the fireworks alone, and go home

alone...

went out of house at 6, reach marina around 7.30

went to esplanade to catch a glimpse of the show, but the place was totally packed

so just wanna wait around there and catch the fireworks..

minutes passed and the fireworks begun...

nothing more interesting then to see the fireworks working my ears out

but its worth the journey

after the fireworks, slowly went back to marina, have a lil' breather

then head to raffles to take da train...

as i'm in the train, zillions of things ran through my mind

being it positive or negative

but the most painfull thing is to remember the things i dont want to remember

some people know this, and i want them to erase it

by some only 2, and i want to move on

i blasted the music in my MP4 to let go of my mind!

got off from train at Yishun...

then i decided to take a cab back home...

reached home around 9.50

i washed my legs, had a bathe

and went to me computer

listen to music that will take my mind off everything

i know whats best for me

so i decided to cont. writing down on me blog..

no pics will be posted here, but on me friendster i will..

got JC 2008 tomorrow

have to meet up FiR at woodlands before heading off to boonlay..

anyways,

i've never felt like this in my entire life ever..

im hurting, tears are in my eyes

but whatever it is, im trying to move on...

i know it'll take months, but its worth it

thanks for the encouragement and advice peeps

!!! shika,andres,azzrul !!!

2008-08-09T00:38:00.004+08:00

eve of national day...

went back to Junyuan Sec...

walk here walk there, met my ex, talk here talk there..

blah blah blah

bought food and items for the pit

hangout at Golden Pines Dome...

went to Travis's house, marinate the chicks!

met the rest at MRT...

went to Pasir Ris Beach...

cook here, there, eat here and there

sing-a-long session is a must for us...

nothing is better and more relaxing then to hear the sound of music

went home at around 10.30

reached home around 12.30

cool 2 hours bus journey ehk!

oh yea, the performance in Junyuan...

only one that really caught my eye, the Modern Dance...

Jeremy's popping was so wicked!

and the dancers was totally awesome...

but it just rang a bell in me

something i want to let go off

thanks to azzrul for helping me to calm down

and oh yea!

i wanna beat the hell out of that person now!

and truthfully speaking i just dont feel confident anymore

about what things?

something that im afraid of losing

2008-08-07T19:40:00.002+08:00

i wonder whats wrong with me these days

i tend to be much more serious then ever

i neglect my friends jokes and just push the jokes aside

thats totally not me

problems i got at home

problems i got with my ownself

all i know now is that i need someone

but somehow, its difficult

sometimes i felt as though you're everything, no more...

but i know thats just not me

i try to be better next week

and i got 2nd Round of JC 2008

WOOOHOOO!!!

hope i make it through though!

then again, practice makes permanent not perfect!

PEACE OUT!!

2008-08-02T01:18:00.003+08:00

hey yaw'll...
hmmmm planning to cont. the blog but seldom yea...

hmmm
now people think i now attached.... which IM NOT!!!
(single la dey)
and Nadia, Aiz, and Kecik...
called me BBB.

BEYONCE BIG BUTTS!!!!

its like now i have to kinda face my butt against them, as they will either stare, smack or even PINCH!!!
walao weh!!!
haix...
nvm they still ma friends...hehehe
feels ticklish though...erm
well ANYWAYS!!!

IM TIRED!!!!
may not be going to SingFest!!!
damn shit!!!

2008-05-27T09:20:00.002+08:00

for some fucking reason, the things that you've done, really put the spear back in my heart!

thanks for it, really appreciate it

you hated it when i changed, do things stupid/crazy...

so what! i am who i am, my friends are by my side, high and low...

fuck the lies that had been torturing me